Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Soul Awakening

An interesting thing happened to me this morning as I was driving home from dropping my son off for his 2nd day of High School. My spirit was awakened as I listened to a Natalie Grant song, Held.

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.
Chorus: This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.
(Chorus) This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
Bridge: If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?
(Chorus) This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

For some time now, I have been standing in the gap for my prodigal. You know the routine, every waking moment you are praying, reading God's Word, relying on God's faithfulness and character when you are unable to lean on your own understanding. Until this morning, I didn't realize that the duration of this battle has caused a numbness of my soul. In a very real sense, I have been operating on auto-pilot. Suddenly, and without anticipation, the beautiful lyrics and melody of this song stirred my Soul! You see, when you are standing in the gap for a loved one, you begin to realize that you are often standing on that wall, a moving target for the enemy, and while the wait is long, your senses become dulled by the constant attacks and noise of the battle. While it is important to remain obedient in our plea, I have missed the soul stirring emotion of being "held."

To feel; when your child is walking on a dangerous path, it is natural to turn off your feelings--they are too dangerous to accept. However, when we turn off our feelings, when we shut down, we cheat ourselves of feeling the comfort that only God provides in our sorrow. When our focus is solely on the answer to our desperate prayer, we put God in a box and stand outside of that box in the cold; standing solidly in the war zone of fear, of anxiety, of self-directed manipulation.

What fears and anxieties cause my feelings to shut down? Am I afraid of God's answer? Do I trust His will for the life of my son? What is so scary that, in my humanness, I wrap my armor so tightly around my heart that I cannot feel the loving comfort of my Savior holding me?

It is no coincidence that when I came home from my daily school drive that I opened my Life Line Devotional and discovered this devotional.

The Reach of His Love

When we choose life, we choose God’s love to abound in us. But what is the reach of God’s love? Here are some examples, straight out of the Bible. Breathe these into your heart. Wear these words like armor. Treasure these truths.

How Far? “As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12

How Wide?
How Long?
How High?
How Deep?

“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ…” Ephesians 3:17b-18

How Much?

“…and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:19


“But as for me, I will enter Your house through the abundance of Your steadfast love and mercy; I will worship toward and at Your holy temple in reverent fear and awe of You.” Psalm 5:7


“The Son is the radiance of God's glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word. After he had provided purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven.” Hebrews 1:3


“For the word of the Lord is right and true, he is faithful in all he does.” Psalm 33:4


“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.” Ecclesiastes 3:11

The ultimate example of God’s far-reaching love for us is found in John 3:16, “For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” Now, that is far reaching love!


If we choose life, we choose God’s promises. What keeps us from choosing life on a daily basis? What steps can we take to fully receive and understand the far-reaching love of our Lord?
Today’s devotional was written by Janie Plante

You see, even when I hide, even though I shut down, no matter how long we operate on auto-pilot--our God is faithful to love us. My choice today is to rest in His promise: His promise of comfort and His assurance of the Victory that will be won--no matter what my performance on that wall. I simply need to remain standing, and when I fall, He has promised to hold me!

Today, focus with me on how it feels to be held in the arms of the One who loves you! Let Him comfort you, let your Spririt be stirred to abundance as He loves you through the battle. Even in the midst of the struggle--let your Spirit soar! Be held!


Dawn said...

I sent this to my husband this morning. Thank you for these powerful words. I heard Natalie at Women of Faith a year or so ago and I think she went through a tremendous trauma - maybe miscarriage or something? I can't remember. But she wrote a beautiful song because of it.

Sometimes I listen to songs many times before the words actually penetrate.

Here is something I got from a former youth pastor who e-mails thoughts every day now.

Wisdom from Fellow Pilgrims

Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger people. Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers. Pray for powers equal to your tasks.

— Phillips Brooks

Have a great autumn day!

Yellow Mama said...

Excellent post. I have several Moms who are standing in the gap for their children who would benefit today from your words!...including me.

Barb said...

I stopped by here to thank you for the lovely comment you left on my Faith Lifts post and found this. Now I'm doubly inpsired. You are a gifted writer. This is beautiful.

Spookie the Warrior said...

Yes, thats what I need right now - to be held...

Heather Smith said...

Great thoughts! So many times I don't open myself to God's comfort during the hard times because I just want Him to make the hard times go away. But if I let Him comfort me, I will grow because after the storm I will be closer to Him. Thanks for sharing this!

Anonymous said...

You and your family are in my prayers.

Come join us on Tuesday mornings if you have time. The kickoff brunch is next week. No need to commit to every week -- just come whenever you can. We miss you.


eph2810 said...

Every time I hear the song, I makes me feel that I am held by Him. Isn't it a comfort to know that we can, at any given minute, crawl into His lap and be held my Him...
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and struggles standing in the gap...
Have a blessed Friday.

tam said...

First let me say I have missed reading you so much! I kept putting off linking you because it takes so much time and I kept a list on paper near my computer to quickly type in and then one day it was gone...then I didn't post for a long time and I knew I was forgetting was YOU!

I know you're hard to forget but with this I love your tender, God-sent words Diane!

This post is lovely and I too just adore this song...even my daughter is beginning to understand the words (she's 8).

Thank you for sharing your was needed!