In just four days, my son will be moving to Mickey-land! You see, while on our Spring Break two weeks ago, he interviewed for a "Casting Call" at Disney World.....and got the job. He is excited, he is thrilled--in his vernacular: he's pumped!
Can I share with you how I feel about this adventure? In my mother's language--I am puh-leez-don't-go-apprehensive!!!!!! While God has been good--and my son has made some very impressive baby steps towards well-being, I remain....screaming-out-loud-resistant to this move.
Maybe it wasn't a good idea to smile when he asked, "Do you think I should call for an interview Mom?" I did not hesitate; I believed this could be a self-esteem booster if he received a job offer. He has been gainfully employed for more than a year--which is a thank-you-God miracle in itself! While there are jobs with more opportunities for advancement than delivering pizza's....why does it have to be 1600 miles from home?
He will be all alone in Mickey-land. Well, yes--he'll have his music collection, his car, and his faithful kitty, Razor. While our family has vacationed many times to Disney World--we really don't know a soul in Orlando! Who will comfort him when he is scared, who will encourage him when he has doubts, who will guide him when he is tempted to make the wrong decisions? This is a deeper level of "letting go" than I am prepared to make.
How will I say goodbye to my little one? He is driving on Wednesday, I am flying to meet him on Thursday. I will stay for a few days to help him get settled; but who will help him thrive? I can hear your resounding reply, "That is up to him, Diane. That will be up to your son."
So, my son is moving to Mickey-land. The last few days I have felt like I am living in la-la land. Blogging has helped; you're amazing support and encouragement has held me to a higher standard. I have been praying for my prodigal for some time now and God is ever so faithful. 1600 miles is no problem for God; His love knows no boundaries: He will continue to watch over my baby.
Prayer: Lord, it’s difficult to change my view of my child. It seems like these prodigal years will never end. And now that my child is legally an adult, the problems are more complex. Help me to adjust my view of my child to one that is more realistic. Help me to minister to my child in practical ways that will show Your love. I want to follow Your example of extending grace to my child just as You did for me. Amen.
Promise: “The Lord…will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over Your coming and going both now and forevermore.” Psalms 121: 7,8