It was just one week ago that I boarded the airplane in LA that would take me home, without you, as you remained solidly in your resistance to participate in New Seasons. You had two options: stay and work through this amazing program or be on your own.....starting that very moment.
As I flew the three and one half hours home, my mind struggled to understand what we had just experienced. In my mind's eye, I could only see my beloved, but very stubborn son, wandering the streets of California pulling a very large suitcase behind him, looking like a bullseye of vulnerability in a State that seems to have more serial killers per capita....than any other.
I am so thankful for the difference a week makes! Moreso, I am thankful for the difference God's promises make! It was only as I trusted completely on Him, having taken my hands off your life, that I could endure the ensuing days, that I could breathe with any ease.
"In the day of my trouble I call upon You, for You will answer me." Psalm 86:7
"After I have suffered awhile, the God of all grace, who has called me to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, will restore me, establish me, strengthen, and settle me." I Peter 5:10
"What woman is she who fears You, LORD? Her shall You teach in the way that she shall choose. Her soul will dwell at ease, and her seed will inherit the earth." Psalm 25: 12-13
My son, there are many promises that I have claimed for your life. As I flew home without you, and each and every moment since, I have been praying them for both of us! I had asked God to "go before" you as you entered this treatment facility. I am so thankful to discover that although I had not asked him to "go before" your Dad and I, He was there for us as we made the toughest decision of our lives.
I am so thankful that our faith is real....it is an interactive faith that holds us together when things seem to be falling apart. As my body struggled to fight off sickness this week, I felt peace by the very real knowledge that while my mortal body had surrendered to a virus of this world, our immortal Father has provided the victory for the fallenness of humanity. "By His wounds....we are healed...." I am so thankful for His love for each and every one of us.
Some people don't believe, son, that we have a need for a Creator, a Redeemer, a LORD over our lives....or that He's even real. I could not have survived this past week without Him. He heard my cries, he counts my tears (Psalm 56:9), He provides peace, strength, and hope for restoration! He will establish your life! This matter has already be settled son....we must only surrender to His promise! I am so thankful that He is walking before you, leading you to His promise! This surrender only requires that we be still, my son.....be still and know:
Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change he faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Katharina von Schlegel