I can't tell you how blessed I am this Thankful Thursday. My foster daughter, Diana, has written a Thankful Thursday that I would like to share with you. Her youngest daughter, Hailey, has been diagnosed with Angelman's Syndrome. This is a post, written by Diana, written for the Angelman Foundation....and us. Keeping with Iris' reminder to "Praise Him in your circumstances, even if you don’t feel like praising Him for your circumstances…," this post illuminates thankfulness in extraordinarily difficult circumstance.
Today I am thankful for "ANGELS:" My Mom, My counselor and anti-depressants.
On May 25,2005 Hailey was born; she was this little tiny
5.5lb baby girl with thick brown hair. Perfect. However as
months passed we noticed something was just not right; milestones
were delayed. We fought, we searched--and after nearly four years,
we finally received a diagnosis in July. Hailey has Angelman Syndrome.
I have struggled with this for the last 5 years. About six months
ago, I was locking my self in my room and crying when ever I could. I
didn't do anything except tend to Hailey and hate myself and my
situation. I had been living like this since I realized something
waswrong with her. Six months ago, with encouragement from my Mom
I hit my breaking point, or rather my rebirth! I made an
appointment with a counselor. Best thing I ever did. She had me go to the DR. and
get on anti-depressants. She helped me realize I had been grieving the
loss of the child I had brought home on that chilly morning in May.
The beautiful little girl that was going to be the prom queen and a
I refer to it as a glass ball. When we have children(or
adopt them or foster them)we have this glass ball full of hopes and
dreams. Hailey's ball dropped and shattered into a thousand pieces.
Our family is still picking up the pieces and gluing them back
together the best we know how. It is no longer a perfect glass ball,
and for a little while we didn't know what it would look like in the
end, but now after counseling, and the great support of a great
family, I am seeing the shape much more clearly than I had in the
past. It is taking the shape of a perfect "ANGEL".
Most parents never feel the joy that our Angel children bring, without saying a
word they tell us 100 times a day that they love us. They do not
judge, they never say hurtful words and they never lie. They
laugh, smile, kiss and hug!! If that is not a perfect child I don't
know what one is!!
Thank you to my Mom for your support, to my counselor for lifting the
cloud, and too My angel Hailey, for you unconditional love, you are
truly a blessing in disguise!
Please leave a comment of encouragement for Diana. I am thankful for your blessings extended.