Works for Me Wednesday
Blogging Friends--strangers...yet sisters. I have posted how meaningful my blogging friendships have been with bloggers such as Beneath the Ivy Wreath and Grandma Dawn. Today, I am posting an email I received from another unknown, yet unmet sister of my heart. I cannot tell you how much she blessed and strengthened my soul as I read each word. I am sharing it today, on this Works for Me Wednesday as I have discovered once again that friends always work for me!!! Be a friend today, thank a friend today--it matters--it works!
My heart goes out to you, and I'm praying for you.
I understand so well the fear of a son sliding backwards once again into dangerous territory. But I truly believe God has his hand on Curt. Curt has too many prayers on his head...and God loves him too much...I am learning that everything works together for good, even when things seem to be going backwards. Several times my son has made a decision or an event has happened that seems to move in the opposite direction of healing and wholeness...but then God uses it in a way that I had never thought of before. I'm about ready to throw in the towel and give up manipulating circumstances altogether because God has made it obvious to me that he sees the big picture and I don't.
I feel your pain about the crisis of faith. I have felt the same at times...not only because of my son...but just because I struggle with being a "doubting Thomas".There is nothing...nothing so painful...as wondering if God is really there. But if I think logically, God is not going to disappear just because I don't believe he's there. He's either there or he isn't. And most pointers point to the fact that he is. So whether I trust him or not, he WILL work for my son because HE IS FAITHFUL. (I am not.) HE IS MERCIFUL. AND HE DIED FOR [OUR SONS]. He will go on working in their lives and there is nothing ANYONE can think or do to stop him.
I, too, live in constant fear that my son is going to slip backwards. Part of the dread of this is wondering if I have enough strength in me to go through any more detours. It's like...you can't get on with your life. And it affects the family/siblings etc.
I will be praying for you, for strength. I will pray for Curt. Don't give up the fight. You're in a battle. But escape to the sidelines and rest at times...let the Lord have the brunt of the fight. He knows what to do. Obstacles are not a problem to him. He has many ways around them!
Take care dear friend, *******