As your Dad left for work this morning, he greeted me in the kitchen with a smile on his face and a song in his heart as he announced, "today is a very good day!" "Why," I asked through my early morning fog? "Because today is the day we begin our new life with our son!"
An interesting perspective. Set aside the fears of your return home after 30 days in New Seasons, the anxiety that lies deep within over the triggers that you will face upon returning to your usual life, the worry about whether or not the Day Treatment you will take part in will be the right fit. I must stop tackling the fears, the anxiety, the "what if's" and focus on the certainty found in Psalm 118: 24, "This is the day the LORD has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."
As deep as our emotional investment in you is son, our faith in our LORD must be greater. Your Dad is right. As this day approached, I nearly missed the opportunity to "rejoice and be glad." I was busy quietly worrying about so many things. The "what if's" of worry silence the "WOW's" of rejoicing!
So as I prepare your room for your arrival late tonight, your Dad has reminded me to prepare my heart for your future! THIS is the day that our LORD has made.....I will rejoice and be glad in it. I will rejoice for the good work He has begun in our lives. I will be glad for the pain of this journey--yes, I am glad for the lessons learned through our pain. Thank you God for meeting us at the brokenness of our hearts and for leading the way to complete healing!
Son, you are a gift from God. And He has gifted our entire family with this season of healing, for this I rejoice, for this I am so glad! As I sit before my computer, I sit on the edge of a miracle in progress--I will not surrender to my human emotion, I will honor this process by sitting before the Throne of God, not the edge of despair. How my heart rejoices because of who God truly is, how His promises are sure, and His love never ending.
THIS is the day the LORD has made just for you son, just for us. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. All fears subside, all anxiety disappear....when we focus on this day....this very day...that the LORD has made just for us.
WOW! What a day!
With Love, Your Mom