Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Dear Son,

As your Dad left for work this morning, he greeted me in the kitchen with a smile on his face and a song in his heart as he announced, "today is a very good day!" "Why," I asked through my early morning fog? "Because today is the day we begin our new life with our son!"

An interesting perspective. Set aside the fears of your return home after 30 days in New Seasons, the anxiety that lies deep within over the triggers that you will face upon returning to your usual life, the worry about whether or not the Day Treatment you will take part in will be the right fit. I must stop tackling the fears, the anxiety, the "what if's" and focus on the certainty found in Psalm 118: 24, "This is the day the LORD has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."

As deep as our emotional investment in you is son, our faith in our LORD must be greater. Your Dad is right. As this day approached, I nearly missed the opportunity to "rejoice and be glad." I was busy quietly worrying about so many things. The "what if's" of worry silence the "WOW's" of rejoicing!

So as I prepare your room for your arrival late tonight, your Dad has reminded me to prepare my heart for your future! THIS is the day that our LORD has made.....I will rejoice and be glad in it. I will rejoice for the good work He has begun in our lives. I will be glad for the pain of this journey--yes, I am glad for the lessons learned through our pain. Thank you God for meeting us at the brokenness of our hearts and for leading the way to complete healing!

Son, you are a gift from God. And He has gifted our entire family with this season of healing, for this I rejoice, for this I am so glad! As I sit before my computer, I sit on the edge of a miracle in progress--I will not surrender to my human emotion, I will honor this process by sitting before the Throne of God, not the edge of despair. How my heart rejoices because of who God truly is, how His promises are sure, and His love never ending.

THIS is the day the LORD has made just for you son, just for us. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. All fears subside, all anxiety disappear....when we focus on this day....this very day...that the LORD has made just for us.

WOW! What a day!

With Love, Your Mom


Heather Smith said...

Diane, I love this post. May I always remember to sit before the throne of God and not on the edge of despair. After all, He's got it all under control doesn't He? Why is it that I just can't remember that! Continuing to pray for your family as God works this miracle in your lives!

Dawn said...

Awesome thoughts. I need to sit before his throne and not on the edge of despair about these coming twins and all that entails! I know, as Heather said, He has it under control, and why can't I remember that either??

I just love your writing and the way your mind works! I trust that this is just the beginning of a whole new life for Curt and for your whole family.

Morning Glory said...

My prayers and hopes are that his homecoming will be a relaxed one. I know it's hard to let the fears go. I have learned to live one day at a time, and that keeps the fears at bay quite often.

Sharon Lynne said...

Your thoughts hit the spot, for me this morning!

Today is our son's first day, too. He just came home late Monday. We're wiping the slate clean and he has a new beginning.

It takes time to change a life. And God is working. You put it aptly when you said that you are watching a miracle unfold.

Thank you for reminding me to rejoice in the day, and not worry about all the lose ends of tomorrow!

Anonymous said...

Great post!

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Teri Moss said...

Wow what a wonderful mother you are. So many would have just given up and not even tried, but you have stuck right by your son and let him know your love is unconditional. I really believe as the song I sent you says" There's A Healing Taking Place" in you and your family today. I loved you blog today and will be much in prayer for all of you

Linda said...

There is a powerful lesson here for each of us Diane. We don't have tomorrow - we have only this day. I can hardly believe the time is up already. I was praying for him just the other morning. I pray now that as he (and you) continue this journey that Jesus will walk along beside you. He will be there to make a way and to lend a hand whenever it is needed. He will be there to give grace for every day. Blessings to all of you.

nancygrayce said...

Praying God will keep your family held fast! What a joyful time for a new start!

Neva said...

Praying for you all!


Nadine said...

Well what an answer to prayer. I pray his homecoming is a blessing for him and for you. You've prayed for so long and we all stood in prayer with you. Blessings to you.

Vicki said...

Oh, this was wonderful to read....and I'm sending hugs your way and prayers, too.

Profbaugh said...

Wow! I'm just blown away by your post. Know that I'm praying for all of you!!

Love in Christ,

Lynn said...

Checking in on you Diane, Keep the faith. Pray like crazy and remain firm.

I am praying right along with you.

Lord Jesus, It is now that the road will become difficult for everyone. Temptations will arise, fear, anger. Lord, I ask your protection from evil and the temptations. Lord, cover this home with your love and an army of angels. In Your precious name, Amen.